Elisa’s life, that of a young Spanish girl, goes on quietly. She has a loving mother and a family that loves her too. She attends school and the parish of her district, where she is among many friends. One day, as she was doing household chores, she stumbled across a packet with letters. A handwriting and an addresses she did not recognize increased the curiosity of the girl, who began to read the papers dated 1993, the year when she had been born. Suddenly, all her certainties crumble: she was conceived following a rape.
Those texts, which cover the entire period of pregnancy, are signed by Rachel’s (not her real name) friends and relatives. Rachel is the woman who gave birth to Elisa. From these letters, the girl learns that her mother, in 1988, animated by faith, decided to profess perpetual vows and enter a convent. After five years, in not very clear circumstances, Rachel suffers a rape and becomes pregnant. “I was not planned by any of my family members – Elisa told Aleteia -, least of all, by my mother, who planned to live a life completely different from the one she has today with me. There are many things I still do not know about what happened.”
Although greatly distressed, Elisa understands that she has been loved since the very beginning. By her mother, by those around her, and above all, by God, the author of a wonderful life project, which began through the mother superior of the Congregation, whose only concern was to protect Rachel. She decided, together with the family, to keep her away from her environment, so as to allow to make a decision without pressure. In an unfamiliar place and away from everyone, the nun is faced with a dilemma: to give up the child up for adoption and return to the community or leave the garment and be a mom.
Guilt, depression, no solution seems to be the right one. The only thing to do is to rely on God. One of her letters reads: “My dear, these days I found a bit of calm in the Word of God, while reading Job. God tests us to see our loyalty. I know that you will overcome it, you will be fine, as always.” Those lines, for Elisa, are like an ice shower. “I believe all of us like to think that we were designed, or at least loved, from the first moment. It took me a while to understand it. “It is thanks to a birthday card that she begins to understand it: “My dear – writes a priest -, I hope you are well. I always remember you in my prayers and the creature you carry in your womb. It has no faults, it is an innocent creature who cannot pay for the mistakes of another person. Stay strong!”
“That moment I understood everything: I am the daughter of violence, I can keep complaining about being an error or I can thank God every day for letting me live and grow with an amazing mother.” Then, another letter, dated the same day Elisa was born: “Dear Rachel, thank you. Thank you because now you say yes to life.”
Today Elisa is convinced of one thing: “God does not allow evil without drawing something good from it.” After giving birth, Rachel got a job in the Episcopal Conference, being able to become, after a few years, the national manager for the youth sector. Providence has not allowed her to abandon her choice to work for other people, for young people, although not the way she had planned at the very beginning. “Growing up, I found out the plan God had prepared for me. Now that I know where I come from, I have much more desire to make it become true, because I feel that He has given me an opportunity that is denied to millions of children every day.”
Elisa wanted to share her experience to launch an appeal to those women who, like Rachel, need to decide on the future of their children: “Please, do not ever think about abortion! God has a special love for you and has big plans for the children who arrive without being desired, and for mothers, He has a great reward for saying yes to life even if it results from such a sad situation. To people conceived through violence I say, please, honor God every day of your life!”